Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Sunday, July 5, 2009

I can't believe i'm actually lying in bed and blogging away! I love the perks of having a wi-fi phone. Can't quite recall the last time I actually switched on my lappie. Not that it's been functioning all that fantastically. Planning to get me a new one, soon enough. Speaking of which I did some financial planning and I've sufficient money for driving which means I should stop procrastinating it and continue with the pracs! Money comes in Friday, that's if my time sheet gets in by noon tmr. And it better!

I have no life outside of work. I get tired easily, I rarely wanna go out cause all I wanna do is catch up on lost sleep. I'm in dire need of some pampering to say the least and have I mentioned how clubbing isn't exactly on my agenda as of late. Rather the usual music does not interest me and by that I mean hiphop & rnb so much so i'm super outdated with the latest chart toppers. Loser-ish i know, but aren't the rest of you bored outta your wits with the same music, same place and same faces? I'm also tired of drinking myself drunk. Though it's been ages since. It's nice to enjoy a couple of drinks with friends every now and then, but getting wasted isn't my alley. Unless of course the girlfriends are being the devils in disguise. Heh. Miss them much!

Ohh, I hear Daddy-kins whipping up something in the kitchen. How do I lose the pounds I've gained if I'm constantly feasting. Dammit. We need more raves! It's an epic win for weight loss. Ha. Water-only-raves rather, stay off the carbonated drinks (yes the last rave i attended didn't sell alcohol, only water and soft drinks) and gulp down tonnes of water...dance the night away, rave it out and I guarantee, you'll see the difference. I felt lighter the following morning. Haha, I kid you not. Also cause I ate nothing besides a slice of bread those two days. Ahhh, how I yearn for another one!

Only good news - SVD is coming down to Singers come august! Wooot, cosmic gate as well.. Probably a stop over before their Godskitchen tour in Aussie. Something to look forward too. Yay!

I love how I care the least.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:40 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Sorry for the lack of updates but I've been quite the busy bee lately.. If it isn't work then I'm probably either home or out and about. My most recent trip being to Malacca for Freedom '09! Where Ferry, Above & Beyond, Tydi and a few others put on an awesome show! Needless to say their production teams did a fabulous job with the laser lights! What's a rave without a massive light show. My first rave outside Singapore and may I add, Malaysians sure do know how to party their asses off! To more raves (outside Singers)! Defqon1 is next on the agenda and I'm totally stoked about it! Hardstyleeeeee babaye~ here we come!

But first things first. The weeekend - Yoji spinned at MOS last year for Shuffle Night and this year he's back for more trance and hard dance at Zirca! Haven't looked forward to anything since I got back from Freedom, so this Saturday should satisfy my burning desire to listen to some MAD BASS!

I thought of heading out tonight just to warm myself up for the weekend. PLUS Leslie officially turns twenty one today and everyones heading to Zirca apparently. HOWEVER, I am still on heavy medication cause I had to fall ill. Hence I won't be drinking even if I went, and I might just tire myself for nothing!

Verdict: stay home and rot like you've been the past two days.

Happpy Midweek darlings! Xx

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6 billion people, 6 billion souls and sometimes all you need is NONE. [things change, people change]

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:21 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

you talk too much.maybe that's your way of breaking up the silence that fills you up.

I'm at work on a SATURDAY, but I like working weekends so shut up I shall. The weekend is here, which means I am that much nearer to next weekend. The plans are obviously all over the place cause some boy took off to Bali and left me stranded. bleah. But none the less I am looking forward to it, even if it means I take that damn bus alone. It doesn't matter, only because it's liberating. Ironically enough, its called 'Freedom Festival'. How appropriate, no? I know right. Only set back is that I am still sick, and I hope I recover, pronto!

I've become quite the twitter lately. No surprise there though, my life revolves around the virtual world. Speaking of which, season finales are here! OTH, Desperate Housewives, Grey's, 90210..boohoo! only consolation,

WEEDSSSS is back next month!!!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:35 AM

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

"Look, you had your shot and you blew it, so why start toying with her again? I mean if you want her why don't you man up and tell her! Otherwise you gotta cut her lose. You gotta cut her lose and you gotta do it for real this time!" -Nate

So this particular line rang a bell and for highly obvious reasons. But then again, everybody wants what they can't have. I on the other hand want what I know I can have, call it contentment call it whatever you want. I know and I want. I don't need it, because I can live without it, I've been living with very minimal of it. It doesn't complete me, it's just become a part of me. With that said, it doesn't bug me so much anymore. Three cheers for Shina. :)

Anyhoo, I know I just came back from a holiday but I really feel like going for another. Raine's off to Perth, the same holiday I was meant to go for till my mom suggests otherwise. Heard Jhonny's off to Phuket, UGH! I'd give anything to go back again! I swear! :( But in order to afford another holiday I actually have to get my ass to work. Then there's my mommy, who's going to Kota Kinabalu - my sister and I are giving her a treat in a form of a short getaway for Mothers Day with my Daddy! So yes I will have the house all to myself some time end of this month EXCEPT that I will be off to Melaka for Freedom the very same weekend! Bummer and not so bummer. I'm making the most of those 2 days cause the next holiday after that will be, well not a holiday but a lil spa trip to Batam with the girls in June. So the next REAL holiday might just be in freaking August to Aussie land. Sighh.

Note to self: I refuse to wait till 2010 to go back to my homeland THAILAND. I need to see my king and his people, by the end of this year. (looks at the Sis, Nithi & Naresh..start planning guyss)

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:05 PM

As of late I have been nothing but exhausted. The emotional pain overwrites the physical pain and almost numbs it. I am neither here nor there, I have lost myself in the process. But in order to find yourself, you have to lose yourself no? So here I am five years later ready to embark on this long (and not so lonely) road I reckon and I have faith. I finally have faith in myself and believe this is gonna get me somewhere.

Slowly but surely - I am embracing change, and sometimes change is what we need.

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***Freeedom, here I comee :)) 29/30

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:36 AM

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Weren't you the one who told me once you would be there?
And every time I try to walk away,
you keep me in my place.

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When you love someone - you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you cant explain
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

You'll deny the truth - believe a lie
There will be times that you'll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - you'll feel it deep inside
And nothing else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you love someone...

When you love someone - you'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got and you wont think twice
You'd risk it all - no matter what may come
When you love someone
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:04 PM

Sunday, April 26, 2009

you'd be a fool if you let him slip away without a fight.

I'm reading this book The Choice by Nicholas Sparks right now by the very same author who wrote A Walk To Remember and The Notebook - a personal favorite that I still read up till today from time to time. I recently told someone that if I were to ever write a book based on my life experiences from the age of 16, it would have been titled THE CHOICE as well. Which is exactly why the book caught my eye when I was at a bookstore in Phuket. Bought that along with My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult which was recommended to me by a friend. I'm a chapter away from finishing Sparks' novel and I must say this book impacts me the same way The Notebook did. I don't want to go into detail but for the bookworms out there, i'd say..own it. It's worth the read, i promise.

A couple a posts back i mentioned how i was conflicted and how i needed a lot more convincing. I definitely got that in more ways than one as of late. The conversations, the tears, the wishes, the card. Especially the card that still sits on my table. The words, your own words. It's funny how you have all these feelings buried deep within you but you never ever voice them till the need arises. Some times you don't need a reason to mention things like that. Because words like these are meant to be heard. It could save something worth saving. Fighting for what it's worth! Who was I kidding? Who the hell was I trying to convince? Nobody but myself. In the end, I played myself for a fool. But I snapped back to reality woke up and saw the bigger picture. On to the 10th month and we're still hanging on to dear life, speaks for itself right there. Here's to clarity.

6 billion people, 6 billion souls and sometimes all you need is 1;

case closed.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:34 AM